"Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how far one can go." ~T.S. Eliot

"You were once wild here, don't let them tame you!" ~Isadora Duncan

"Be faithful to that which exists within yourself." ~Andre Gide

"Follow your bliss!" ~J. Campbell ... and my folks!

"The idea of waiting for something makes it more exciting." ~Andy Warhol

"There is no passion to be found playing small - in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living." ~Nelson Mandela

"...open and expanding like an unfinished book..." ~Quote from a friend, Travis Judd

"Start by doing what's necessary; then do what's possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible." ~St. Francis of Assisi

"And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same." ~Nelson Mandela

"The capacity to be puzzled is ... the premise of all creation, be it in art or in science." ~Erich Fromm

"Between two evils, I always pick the one I never tried before." ~Mae West

"Theatre is a form of knowledge; it should and can also be a means of transforming society. Theatre can help us build our future, rather than just waiting for it." ~Augusto Boal

Monday, March 21, 2011

Fear of not really being qualified.

Ok, I know I've said this before (right?!) but sometimes - despite knowing one has to "sell" themselves in this business - I find it ridiculously hard to actually submit myself to certain jobs. I know I could do it, but I fear that when (and if) "they" (the great and powerful they) read my CV that they won't feel that way. For example, I have no Artistic Director experience, and yet, I'm confident that I could do the job. I have no Managing Director experience, and yet all my stage managing credits, my directing experiences, my experiences as a director (even if they are small scale) and my working for a Talent Manager (among all my other theatrical and non-theatrical experiences), all these things have formed me into the person I am today, they have made me THE PERFECT CANDIDATE for these positions, and so many more! So, knowing in myself that I can do the job, why do I find it so hard to believe that someone else could see it too? And not just see it, but interview me and HIRE me!?!?!

I'm sure the feeling has something to do with the fact that I've applied all over the place over the past two years and only received a few interviews ... I wonder what my resume "doesn't" say, ya know? What's wrong with my credentials? Why am I not getting hired? Is it merely because I'm not related to some big wig already within the business? If I'm being honest, I do feel that this is part of the problem, I mean too many (in my opinion) folks get into the entertainment industry because of who they're related too over the talent they have (or, in MANY MANY MANY cases, DO NOT HAVE!!!). But I digress ... I have the talent and the experience so why am I not getting a good, full time job??? I've worked, literally all over the world ... I've networked ... I've got good connections ... so why can't I get a really good job?

Arrrrrrrrrgh...the frustrations! Time to stop complaining and get back to the hunt.

I've been surfing several sites this morning and finding jobs to apply for ... and yes, you guessed it, I find myself second guessing some of them for the above stated reason.

Get out of your head Maggie Moo ... and get applying!!!

Ok, now I must do that!

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