Ahhh balance. I suppose I should think of it in Balinese terms and strive for the balance between good and bad, though it's hard to do when it appears that there is more on the "bad" side of the scale than the "good" - specifically where work (or job hunting) is concerned.
And so it goes, with every positive albeit little foot forward, there also comes more NO!
Today I received an official letter from the Williamstown Theatre Festival telling me that they are unable to offer me the fellowship for this summer. NO! Sigh...the summer job I wanted the most is a no. I'm sure it is a generic rejection letter sent to everyone that they are not awarding the fellowship too, but there is one line in it that - small silver lining - makes me feel good, even if they didn't specifically name my qualities.
"The applicant pool this year was impressive and we were forced to turn away many candidates with extraordinary accomplishments."
So I am officially counting myself as one of those! Hahaha. ;o)
And there you have it, yesterday I'm hired for a job and today I'm rejected by one. Some days it's really hard to remember why I chose this profession! I love stage managing and am very excited about my upcoming position, but I'm always getting no's for the directing jobs that I really really want.
It is so hard to become a director, one that people know about, respect, admire and want to hire. I apply for scripts that have already been chosen by a company and jobs where I put in a proposal for something that I want to do. This fellowship - had I gotten it - would have meant me working on a project that I'd "created" - with a team of actors and a playwright, from the ground up. And I really think my idea is good, no GREAT! So now I will contact a friend at my former undergrad and see if he and I can't work it out so that we do it at the Uni.
Wish me luck!
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